November 24, 2003

I might be Neurotic

I also got my third short paper assignment for Western Civ returned back to me. I made another 25/25. I just have one paper like this to write (this week actually) and a final left for that class. In Music Appreciation I was handed back my second and final concert report, which only needed to be 2 pages in length, but I ended up writing 8 pages because I had a wealth of material to cover. I was worried it was too long and that my grade would consequently suffer. I ended up with a check plus plus on that. You might say that I was concerned for nothing, but I should take a moment to explain something about me and how I function as a student.

I start out each semester with lots of energy. As I start handing in papers and projects or taking exams and that energy I started out with begins to convert into grade anxiety (because I am never entirely sure what to expect with new professors). The anxiety that follows is also a driving force because it motivates me even more to take each assignment seriously and put forth my very best effort to meet the expectations of each class. I don't see a little stress as being a bad thing when it compels me to work hard. Once I get all of my papers back, and I see that I did well, my anxiety is completely resolved and I have both the energy and the assurance (that I indeed have the right idea) I need in order to move on to the next round of school work. And that's where I am at right now.

-- CrystalShiloh @ 05:51 PM